Wednesday, January 14, 2015
have you ever tried sleeping with a broken heart
Well last night... was a disaster. i was wrong the worse case scenario wasn't the world exploding the worst case was him leaving and not spending the night with me and thats exactly what happened. I'm not really sure why though. one minute we were joking and playing and the next minute he was angry and packing his things and leaving. i begged him not to go, but he wasn't hearing it... My tears have no affect on him so he doesn't even look twice when i begin to cry. I try asking him what i did wrong how i upset him, but he wouldn't tell me. i cried and begged but... he still left. we were in the drive way where i pleaded for him not to go and he said he was leaving anyway, so i ran into the house in tears. A few minutes later i heard the screen door open and i thought maybe he was really coming back to comfort me. but it was just my mother she saw me in tears and i was crying so hard i couldn't even tell her why......Last night was supposed to be the best night of my life, he says he still loves me but why do i feel 3 different kinds of heart break..... last night i cried myself to sleep with my arms wrapped tightly around my pillow and tears running down myface until unconsicousness took over and i passed out, I felt so alone and abandoned.Its like alicia keys said in her song "Have you ever tried sleeping with a broken heart? well you should try sleeping in my bed."